Sunday, 3 June 2018

Better than Inception

This is a continuation to the previous blog post. After I wrote that post, I felt sleepy and realized I need more rest so I went back to sleep for another 4 hours. This time, I dreamt a lot!

There are too many scenes too remember. My dream is just filled with so many scenes. I don't know where to start with. I got all scrambled up.

I was on a small plastic raft, floating on the lake bank. I went into the water (or maybe I fall into it?). It was shallow, not even reaching up to my knee. I think I went up the land and saw some wooden houses. It seems to be a beautiful village here.

I knew that I have dreamt enough and it is time to wake up. So I woke up in a room with some kind-looking people in there. I think I walked around and talked. Suddenly there was this cool song that I never heard of pops out in my head. I began singing it. The song just consist of simple phrase but its quite fun to sing it. I knew this is a dream so I sang it over and over again so that I will remember this song when I wake up. Later on, I woke up and forgotten about the lyrics and rhythm. I am more emotional in dreams so songs sound more amazing in my dreams but I always wake up forgetting these songs.

I woke up in a different scene again so I tried to wake up again. I failed to wake up and appeared in a different scene. This process repeated several times, I can't really remember actually how many times I tried to wake up only to appear in a different dream scene. Everytime I appeared in a new scene, I thought to myself whether this really is the real world. There is one scene where there is an elephant. In another scene, I actually went back to that plastic raft scene.

Then, I woke up in a comfortable bedroom alone. I think this is it! No more weird scenes! Then I realize that I can see the bottom part of a staircase on the ceiling. This is NOT my room! So I tried to wake up again. I know I am slowly succeeding as I am starting to wake up in bedrooms. Finally I opened up my eyes and looked around. I analyzed the room real hard and knew that this is my real room. I quickly got up to checked the clock.


This is really is inception! I can just wake up again and again in a different dream. I never had this much dreamception before!

Cuckoo Biological Clock

Had a dream but can't remember it when I woke up. This is very common, I always wake up knowing I had a dream because I can feel a fading new memory in my brain. Well, today I'm not going to talk about dreams since I can't remember my dream today. I'm going to talk about my sleep instead.

I decided to take an afternoon nap around 6pm so that I can wake up feeling refreshed to do my assignments at night. So off I went to sleep and woke up hungry. I know it's time for dinner as it is late at night. I looked out the window and saw that there are only a few cars so I estimated that it may be around 9-10pm. I ate my dinner and looked at the time on my computer. My computer shows that the time is almost 4am. I thought there is some technical problem on my computer so I checked my phone and realized it definitely is almost dawn now!

I was really shocked as this is one of the few times I miscalculated the time. Usually my biological clock can estimate the duration of my sleep but this time my calculations are far from right! I have been sleeping for 10 hours! Usually I would have dreamt a lot for such a long sleep and remembered several scenes.

I think it is due to me having a severe lack or sleep and inconsistent sleep hours which causes my biological clock to go cuckoo.

Get it?... get it? Haha

Friday, 1 June 2018

Subconscious Writing

I have been sleeping for 5-6 hours then I started waking up in my sleep but having a hard time.

I dreamt I meet with Big Mama. There was some kind of competition here, something like a race. I think she was throwing things with such great power that it looks like she is throwing lightning bolts at us. I had to run and block the projectiles.

Then there was this scene where there is a game of dodging slow missiles. In another dream scene, there is this small cute dog following me.

Then in a final scene, I realized that I am dreaming so I took out my notepad and began recollecting these scenes that I have dreamed so I can note them down. Then I woke up, realizing that all that I have wrote down is gone! It's just a dream! So I have to remember the scenes again to record for real this time.


However, I realized that I cannot remember the dreams well. When I was writing in my notebook in the dream, I can remember all the dreams but as soon as I woke up, I immediately forgotten the details of my dreams. Is this how subconscious works? I can remember my dreams in my dream but I have difficulty after waking up. In an subconscious state, I can connect to my memory better than waking up. Is this how hypnosis works by connecting to your subconscious self to recall back forgotten memories?

Thursday, 31 May 2018

Waking Up

These couple of weeks, my sleeping habit has been terrible as for I am sleeping less and inconsistent. So today I decided to have have a late afternoon nap to recover a little bit. I was sleeping for more than an hour then I started to dream.

I remember the last part of the dream very well. Here it goes:


I was near a large swampy pond. There seems to be large and long fishes in it. I counted them all and realized that there are a lot of them. I dreamed this from the memory of counting mudskippers a few days ago in a swamp near where I stay.

Then I was in a game world. I was looking at this game world through a desktop computer screen. There seems to be some problems with the game. Can't remember what are the exact problems now.

Then I realized that I have to escape from this game world. I tried to wake up but I can't. My mind is just too tired. So I jumped around and wave my arms frantically trying to warm myself up so I can wake up. Apparently, my alarm clock was ringing. I did not hear the alarm in my dream but subconsciously I knew that I have to wake up.

My mind was shaking, I know that I am waking up but it was still slow so I move around even more. I finally woke up. I was in a room covered in stone walls and weapons as decorations. I seem to be in ancient Europe, during the medieval times. I looked around at saw 2 guys, both looks like honorable warriors. One of them was sitting and the other one just arrived/ or left. I can feel that they are the one who helped me escape from that game world.

Then I woke up again. For real this time. It is around 7:38pm.

There has been a few times (quite rare actually) that I experience this phenomenon of difficulty of waking up. I have to struggle real hard just to wake up very slowly and I can experience the weird feeling and trembling of my mind as I slowly become conscious into the real world. However, I think this is my first time that I was tricked by my mind. I experience this waking up struggling phenomenon only to wake up in my own dream again, thinking I have actually woken up.



Friday, 11 May 2018

Sadness

Had a sad dream. I woke up around 8:10 am due to sadness. Let's see how it started. 

I remember walking in a courtyard. There are some yellow things in the middle of the floor so I walked over them. When I looked back, I was shocked to see that they are actually vipers! Two of these fearsome-looking yellow snakes are resting together on the ground. They looked disturbed from me walking over them but luckily they are not threatened to be aggressive yet. I was really lucky that they did not strike at me. 

Then there are more forgotten moments.

In the final scene, the courtyard is now full of people. There seems to be an event here. A guy walked over to the vipers which are now resting against a wall. I shouted asking him to watch out as those are deadly. He ignored me and lifted those snakes but it turns out they were just a bunch of harmless objects. I cannot believe how was I able to confuse them as snakes just now. I clearly saw that they were vipers. Now I am feeling embarrassed.

Then, a powerful figure came - a lady, which looks like Hela from Thor: Ragnarok. I felt intimidated by her presence. She went over to a cupboard and rummaged through my stuffs. She took out a rare coin from my coin collection. She held the coin as she marveled at it. The coin is a golden 50 cents with a different symbol on the back as the usual ones. She pushed me around, made me feel weak and small. She look through my collection without my permission. Luckily, she put the coin back and left the cupboard. I was near the cupboard feeling really sad and weak as the tall brown grasses behind me waved against the breeze seemingly comforting me.

The lady was standing at the auction table before leaving afterwards. I walked over to the auction table only to realize all my coin collection has been auctioned off, and the buyer was the lady! I asked how much were my collection sold for. The auction guy told me he sold them all for only 9 dollars. I felt really down, loosing my precious collection for a mere 9 dollars. I tried to cheer myself up by thinking how high the value of 9 dollars is.

I woke up, still feeling sad.

Hela can see the values of treasures so does this mean
my coin collection is indeed that valuable?


Thursday, 10 May 2018

Fieldtrip to death

Finally woke up at 5:13am. I actually woke up at around 3am and earlier but slept afterwards. Each time I woke up with a dream but will forget them after continuing sleeping. I slept a total of about 10 hours. This is indeed a long sleep, with a long dream if combined. I slept with the lights on for this time, not sure whether it has an impact on my dreams. Without further due, let's start with the dream!


I was stranded in an unknown place, possibly in a foreign country. I saw a group of students boarding a bus. They seem to be finishing their fieldtrip and are now on their way back to their university. It seems like they are from the same university as I am so it would be good if I boarded their bus as well to get back.


So I sneaked on board the bus and sat at the 2nd last row of seat. It seems like a van inside the bus with the smaller space and less seats. I tried to make friends with the students but they seem unfriendly and did not try to converse much with me. Maybe I dreamt about this because in my class I am often left out since most of the students do not know me. 

One of the boy managed to have a good talk with me though. He listened to my problems. He then asked me if I mind taking a ride on a Mercedes-Benz back to my place. I was confused for a while so he explained that he would call up somebody to pick me up with his Benz and send me back home. Come to think of it, this boy looked wealthy. Even by the way he dresses and speak, you know that he is rich. Getting his friend to drive over to pick me up and send me back to the university which could be hundreds of miles away sounds like a lot of trouble so I declined and told him I can think of something else myself. I told him I can even drop off at the next city and take a flight from there.

While on the road, I was looking out at the window. The bus drove up to a higher ground along a cliff where you can get an unobstructed view of the sea below. I saw a mountain in the distance and I quickly pointed at it saying that it is Mt. Fuji! Then, I looked closely and realized that it is not. The students nearby began to laugh. What an embarrassment.

We stopped at a checkpoint to rest and have some food at a cafeteria. At first, I wanted to sit with these bus boys but I was called by someone in another table. I realized that it is my lecturer - Dr Jure, so I went and sit with her and her students. She then suddenly asked me a question, saying that it is a hidrological question. The question is something like 'what happens if a tiger urinate in a river?' I don't really know the answer as I have never heard of anything like this but I tried to act clever in front of the students anyway by answering the question. Somehow I managed to explained my answer, about the urine flowing down the river and affecting the ecosystem in a good way.

The bus then resumed its journey. We arrived at the border gate. The gate is quite small and made of zinc. Seems like a simple immigration border facility. They opened the gate for the bus to enter and park. It is quite late so it seems like we will be spending the night here.

This area is quite large. There is a dorm where the students can stay in too. I wandered around the facility without entering the dorm yet. It was quite late at night when suddenly few students are rushing towards the office with a scared look on their face. There are 3-4 of them. They went into a large Avanza car and rested in there. I went over to the car to hear what's wrong. They said that there is some paranormal activity in their room. There seems to be ghost disturbing them so they do not dare to sleep there tonight. While they were talking, I realized there is something off. Something feels strange and not right in the atmosphere. I kept myself alert for any danger.

I have a feeling one of these students is possessed. Then, one of the student went out of the car and stand few meters away, at the side of the road. He/she took out a automatic rifle and start shooting at us. The students quickly panicked and ran away. Some of them are unfortunately shot down. I, however, jumped into the driver's seat and started the car.

I realized that this is no normal paranormal activity. This facility is in fact, secretly an science experiment facility which does mind experiments on the visitors that stayed overnight. The border officers here are in fact the enemy!

I saw one guy in a smaller car, possibly a Myvi. He seems to be taking out a gun to shoot at me too. Before he could do that, I started the car by pressing on the start button. I drove fast and rammed into the side of the car, directly into the driver's side. He took quite a shock but he seems to be uninjured. I reversed the car and crashed into him again. He seems still alive so I repeatedly reversed and rammed into his car. I was thinking about four things. One - I can really drive well for my first time because I have never drove a car before. Two - I have to be careful that I do not get carried away and be shot at this close range. Three - I hope that my car won't get too damaged. I may still need to use it. Four - Why won't he die! I really need to kill him! In my dreams, I usually show no mercy to my enemy and try to kill them. This is because even in real life I could understand that villains are most likely to take revenge afterwards if you give them a chance to live.

So with the last ram, I killed him as he had his head facing out of his window when I crashed at him. I drove back and saw a group of officers underneath the tent roof preparing their guns to come at me. I turned the car and drove really fast towards the tent. One of them was already out of the tent, charging towards me. I drove into the guy and crashed the tent hard. The tent collapsed, seemingly killing everyone. I know in real life you wont die from a tent collapse but this is a dream!

There were more soldiers coming out with their guns so I parked the car in front of a building. I climbed the roof of the car and jumped into the 2nd floor window. I entered into a dark restroom. Seems like the dorm. There are some people resting so I also relaxed. I thought to myself, this is like an adventure computer game where there is a safe rest house for you to rest and heal before continuing the journey.

This is when I woke up. Still feeling sleepy but I forced myself to wake.


Later on, I actually went back to sleep again, but for a while only. I dreamt about entering a washroom and can't find the male rooms. I realized this is a female washroom because all the toilet doors has the female symbol on it and there are only ladies in this washroom. I went out and found the male washroom next to it. I woke up then. Maybe I really needed to go to the toilet.


Before I dreamt about all these, I had an earlier dream. I was with a fat and ugly woman. We were quite intimate because I realized that she is my wife. At first I don't want to have sex with her but then since I realized that she is my wife, we had sex anyway.



Wednesday, 9 May 2018

Embarrassment

Woke up in great embarrassment. Glad it was all just a shameful nightmare. It is only 7:50 am and I had only like 6 hours of sleep but I felt awake now and really afraid to return to my sleep. You may be wandering what happened?

It all started one night when I was in an area which seems to be an empty stage prepared for some public function. Then it changed to the next scene.

The next thing I remember is that I was back on my bed, waking up from a dream. I checked my news feed and was utterly shocked to see my photos being viralled. There is a video of me on the stage singing in a crazy mood. I must be drunk!

I tried hard to remember what had happened. I remembered that I had a cup of alcohol before going to the stage. Maybe that made me drunk suddenly so I acted weird on the stage?

I watched the video and heard myself singing. Of course it is awful! The stage is decorated with blue color and the logo of Barisan Nasional. It seem like the place is set up for a political campaign and I was on the stage singing crazily to entertain the crowd. Everyone was happy and laughing at my performance. I felt really ashamed of myself. How could I let something like this happen! Singing badly is one thing. Performing publicly in a political party campaign is another thing which will get me hated my majority of the people who dislike that party.

I don't know what to do. Feels like my life is over now. All I can do is just accept my fate and man up. So that is what I told myself. I am confident that I can face this and bear my shame sportingly.

Then I woke up, feeling really great that this is not real!

BTW, this party (Barisan Nasional) actually lost in the recent election
Maybe my dream is an omen that they will be defeated in shame?